02:20 am - Meh.
So, I am SLOWLY but surely getting better. *knocks on wood* Of course, Chris called me today and said he is getting a cough. I told him it wasn't me who gave it to him, I haven't seen him since Monday, but he doesn't believe me. I told him he better hope that ALL he gets is a cough. This cold has been a BITCH. I need a job where I can work from home. I feel like shit so often, that I don't want to go to the office. I mean, I have a cush job, I make my own hours, and pretty much do the busy work around there, but my boss just doesn't treat people right. I have been begging her to help me get a cheap cruise, but she always makes excuses... she send her son on a honeymoon cruise though... no problem there. I am afraid if I go after some other job, though, they won't put up with as much shit as she does. I mean, I can only work 4 hours max per day, 5 days a week... I get sick pretty easily, so I don't go in. She puts up with tons of crap, but then again... so do I. I would love to work for an airline (free flights baby!) but every freaking job requires being able to lift 75 lbs (uh, I can lift 5 with my left and 1 with my right)... I want like a reservations agent job, but I can never find anything like that in Colorado. All the jobs are in California and shit. What I really need to do, is get better (finally) so that I don't have to call in all the time, and that way I can work out too. I mean, it is tough working out when you can't breathe! Also, I will soon (I think) find out how much my settlement will be. Who the fuck knows. With my luck, I won't get shit. *cries* All I want is enough to pay off my debts, put down a down payment on a house, and put some into savings. That's not a lot to ask right? After 12 trips to the O.R.? I don't think so, but we've proved that logic doesn't prevail in these situations. I have SO many out standing bills right now. I had 100,000 in medpay, and I think I spent like 160,000. Oops. Hopefully medicare will help with the 70,000 bill from my surgery (I was already covered at that point). I just see so much I want to do with my life, but it is hard, ya know? People tell you to work out to get into shape... it's hard with one bad ankle, one bad shoulder, one bad wrist, knee joints that hurt, and a sometimes bad back. The only thing I can think of that is low impact is swimming, but I can't do that because of my wrist. I need an aquatic brace... I don't think those exist.
Crossbow, did you see my other post to you about depression meds? I see that doc in 2 weeks, and if there is another suggestion, I would appreciate it.