05:27 am - Ugh. Why am I awake right now?
So, it is 5:15 in the morning... I have no bloody idea why I am awake. I tried to lay there, but my theory is... if you lay there for more than, say 45 minutes, and don't feel the slightest bit tired, then you might as well use your time doing something besides staring into the darkness. So, I decided to read. Yay! Anyways, I think I am going to attempt sleep again... but who knows what will happen. Tonight I am going to go house sit. I always watch their house when they go out of town, and I usually watch their kid. Well, this time, the older brother is graduating from college, so they are all going to the graduation. So, I am going to stay at the house, and watch their dog. LOL. I am actually doing it again at the end of the month for 5 nights. Me and the mutt. Good times. I am actually glad that it is just us... usually when I watch the kid, I have to get him up at 5 for school. I am beyond happy that I don't have to do that this time.
THEN, on Saturday, I am going to see Les Mis. I haven't seen it, but know the soundtrack, so I am very excited. It will be... and interesting experience to say the least. I am going with my friend Danielle, who I went to Europe with, and Chris. They are both my best friends... and well, lets just say that Chris doesn't like hanging out with her. It is annoying, because she has never done anything to him. I basically told him that the only way I would go with him, is if she went, because she wanted to see the play too. Otherwise, I told him I would just go with her.
He text msged me this morning, asking if I thought about what I would do (about the Vancouver trip). I responded with the fact that I already told him last night, that I don't give a damn, Rick is going. I actually told Rick today that Chris was upset because of... well, everything I have already explained. He really wants to go, and is, but he still doesn't want to be the cause of friction between Chris and I. I reassured Rick that any issues Chris and I have, are from the past 4 and a half years... its nothing new.
Oh well... I am tired of having to sacrifice what makes me happy all the time. I am a giving person, and always think of others before myself, but I don't want to have to be upset in order for Chris to feel better. It may be selfish, but damn it.... I want what I want this time, and I am not going to give in to anyone's bitching. *sigh*