Jean-Claude's White Rose (firefly319) wrote,
Jean-Claude's White Rose

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This makes up for not posting in... forever.

Ok, this is me venting. If some kind human who actually reads my babble cares to respond, I will love you forever. Not that I am looking for a solution... I may have bitched here before about this... but regardless... here goes...

Chris. How did you guess this was going to be about him. So, the way I see our friendship, is that I do not see us as anything else. I truly don't. We are SO close... this is the closest friendship I have ever had. Someone to talk to, hang out with... a best friend. Last night, when we had the "we are JUST friends" discussion... AGAIN... I brought up something that he said when we *first* had this discussion. He said that he could *never* see us as anything but really good friends.

Like I said above, that is what I think... my problem with that statement, however, is the word *never*. I hate that word. I have seen people be friends and figure out they are soulmates (i.e. Chandler and Monica... just kidding). I know it happens. While I see us as only friends, I have never said that nothing can EVER happen in the future. I am willing to keep my mind open to even the slightest possiblity of *someday*. I want to know why he is so final with this... but I don't want to ask him, because that is the perfect way to freak a guy out. I do not want to ruin our friendship... so I am going to keep my mouth shut. I just wish I knew what about me makes it so we could never be together.

I know he cares about me, and that is good enough... I care about him too... I am just frustrated. I feel sort of, emotionally hurt because of that statement... ya know? It is stupid, and I just need to vent. I want to figure things out... I just want to know why... not change anything... but why.

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